Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Haiz... I really don't understand guys at all. They can be so sweet at this moment but becomes a raging bull at the next. I really feel like giving up, I am so tired in carrying on le. All the unexpected change in temperament are building stress in me apart from my hectic schedule. Sometimes I wondered how much longer my pathetic body could survive in this tough tough world. I don't understand?? I always thought that girls are supposed to be protected by guys, let alone lay a finger on them. But I don't understand why am I suffering all these abuses. Antt told me that she very pei fu me for being able to endure so long in this relationship. She said that the girls should leave once the guy had lay a finger on her, but it not easy to do so. I really lack of the courage. Frankly speaking, I really admired Antt alot that she is able to stand up again after the fatal attack from her previous guy. I could still remembered that she not able to sleep at nitez and being crying almost any nitez. Melancholy always attacked her without any signals. All those difficult times she been through I witnessed all of it, so I really said that she is tough. Antt said I am addicted to love but the the relationship is she right I don't know. I am in a confused state of mind now. So I should slowly sort thing out and let it calm down. I think we all need a period of cooling down.
8:42 pm
