Monday, June 19, 2006
Wheez, my hoiday ends liao worz! Cannot slack liao. Cant really get used to waking up so early in the morning after 2 weeks of waking up late. Well...2 days ago, me and deardear was talking about hot cakes thingy. He said he wanted to order mac breakfast--hot cakes. I forbids him to do so as I think is not worth it lo. Den he said he wanted to make pan cakes himself in my house. Den from the time we started about taking about the pan cakes... that's where the troubles started brewing. Our opinions and views on the pan cakes get different, He said that pan cakes can be made on the traditional house stir frying wok. The very big wok type which mama used for stir-frying vegetables de. I said that using the wok the pan cakes woud came out to be disasterous de. He said wont de larhz. Den we debated on this issue very long, and we shifted from the wok to the oil part. I said using the wok the batter would stick to the wok de. He said by adding oil to to it den it wont stick to the wok le. Den I said den the pan cakes would be very oily de. He said use a tissue or oil wiper toilet to wipe away the oil on the wok can le, let the wok surfsce got an oily surface can le.
Den our arguement started. From the pan cakes thingy we kept quarrelling. den deardear said that our "yi jian bu he", I am not willing to admit I am in the wrong, and I am always wanting to win, My "hao sheng xin" very strong he cant take it. I refuted him by why from this small matter can be blown up to such a huge matter, He said the matter does not just about the pan cakes thingy le. Is the way how I handle matter. The ting thing that I don think important or small thing to him matters alot.
Den he said using an analogy we are both in a train that is nearing its destination--break out. There is a key along the track which can open the lock of a spilt track to our future. But the chances are very slim. Den he said he wanted to break up with him. He was so adamant in it. I had no choice but to agreed to it. Though it hurts so painfully. I cried alot till my pillow is so wet. Den we talk till 6 plus in the morning, more than 6 hours of conversation. Though there are hang ups of calls in between. During the last part of the talk I could felt that deardear had soften his approached but he still dont want to "patch up" with me.
Later in the afternoon which is yesterday--father's day. He called me around 5 plus to talk. I was so surprised that he called me. Normally I am the ones to give in and call him 1st de. Den we talked awhile den asked him whether do I wanted to change for the good. I said I know where I gone wrong and I had already changed to be more smarter to handle thing le and so on blah blah..Den I asked him is he willing to forgive me and "patch up". He said No. I am so devastated. I lost all hopes. I said to him I wanted to use the tarot to foretell and ask for advices. The tarot cards showed the follwing 5 cards. "inverted temperance, inverted the hermit, the hang man, the world and the devil" It was quite a bad cards except the world. I interpreted for deardear later when he called me for the interpretations. One of the cards--the hang man said after sadness there is a glimsp of hope. He told me am I willing to go his house right now. As I had woke up not long ago and sianz that I had to travelled all the way to boon lay when I live in toa payoh. The bus journey took more than 1 hours there. I was abit unwilling. Den he told me to come down to his house nw to celebrate father's day for his father and asked me to buy a cake. He told me to make it fast as his family was going out for dinner at 6.30pm. Den is already 5 plus le it was in such a hurry. I hurry changing my clothes and all sorts den i went to the cake shop which it durian mousse cake is nice. I bought it and waited quite long for cab and time is pressing. I reached his house around 6.20pm.
When I reached his house I saw his mother at the doorsteps talking to neighbour. wahahaz.. Den i murmured some thing den went inside his house. Den deardear is in his bedroom. He told me to placed the cake in the fridge. Den he said that the book that I had given to him when is was my 1st month anniversary gift to him was in the 1st drawer. I been searching for this book for some times den he told me that it meant to be a supprised on our 1 year anniversary that the book surfaced. He was still quite cold towards me den he told me to said sorry. I apologised.
Den later me and his family went out for dinner at taman jurong there. By then he was okay to me le. Den quite sweet to me. We had sambal kangkong, cereal prawn, pipa chicken, sweet sour fish and egg toufu with black pepper chicken in the centre. The serving portions were so small worz.. But it was quite delicious. Later his parents went to sheng siong supermart to shop, his brother went to buy thing. We went back to his house 1st. During the bus trip, I asked him why he asked me to his house to celebrate his father's day. He replied by his mother told him to invite me de. Icicz.. Den he overslept and told me to come at 5 plus when he had woke up..Dots.. he told me that the break up thingy was a hoax. He wanted me to know that I am in the wrong and wants me to feel remorse and guilty.
In the bus trip he was so sweet to me. I can truly feel that. Later when his parents were back he cut the cake and we shared it. It was nice. We watched telly and I left his house around 10..kekez..I took cab home den reached home around 10 plus. So tired.
Den our arguement started. From the pan cakes thingy we kept quarrelling. den deardear said that our "yi jian bu he", I am not willing to admit I am in the wrong, and I am always wanting to win, My "hao sheng xin" very strong he cant take it. I refuted him by why from this small matter can be blown up to such a huge matter, He said the matter does not just about the pan cakes thingy le. Is the way how I handle matter. The ting thing that I don think important or small thing to him matters alot.
Den he said using an analogy we are both in a train that is nearing its destination--break out. There is a key along the track which can open the lock of a spilt track to our future. But the chances are very slim. Den he said he wanted to break up with him. He was so adamant in it. I had no choice but to agreed to it. Though it hurts so painfully. I cried alot till my pillow is so wet. Den we talk till 6 plus in the morning, more than 6 hours of conversation. Though there are hang ups of calls in between. During the last part of the talk I could felt that deardear had soften his approached but he still dont want to "patch up" with me.
Later in the afternoon which is yesterday--father's day. He called me around 5 plus to talk. I was so surprised that he called me. Normally I am the ones to give in and call him 1st de. Den we talked awhile den asked him whether do I wanted to change for the good. I said I know where I gone wrong and I had already changed to be more smarter to handle thing le and so on blah blah..Den I asked him is he willing to forgive me and "patch up". He said No. I am so devastated. I lost all hopes. I said to him I wanted to use the tarot to foretell and ask for advices. The tarot cards showed the follwing 5 cards. "inverted temperance, inverted the hermit, the hang man, the world and the devil" It was quite a bad cards except the world. I interpreted for deardear later when he called me for the interpretations. One of the cards--the hang man said after sadness there is a glimsp of hope. He told me am I willing to go his house right now. As I had woke up not long ago and sianz that I had to travelled all the way to boon lay when I live in toa payoh. The bus journey took more than 1 hours there. I was abit unwilling. Den he told me to come down to his house nw to celebrate father's day for his father and asked me to buy a cake. He told me to make it fast as his family was going out for dinner at 6.30pm. Den is already 5 plus le it was in such a hurry. I hurry changing my clothes and all sorts den i went to the cake shop which it durian mousse cake is nice. I bought it and waited quite long for cab and time is pressing. I reached his house around 6.20pm.
When I reached his house I saw his mother at the doorsteps talking to neighbour. wahahaz.. Den i murmured some thing den went inside his house. Den deardear is in his bedroom. He told me to placed the cake in the fridge. Den he said that the book that I had given to him when is was my 1st month anniversary gift to him was in the 1st drawer. I been searching for this book for some times den he told me that it meant to be a supprised on our 1 year anniversary that the book surfaced. He was still quite cold towards me den he told me to said sorry. I apologised.
Den later me and his family went out for dinner at taman jurong there. By then he was okay to me le. Den quite sweet to me. We had sambal kangkong, cereal prawn, pipa chicken, sweet sour fish and egg toufu with black pepper chicken in the centre. The serving portions were so small worz.. But it was quite delicious. Later his parents went to sheng siong supermart to shop, his brother went to buy thing. We went back to his house 1st. During the bus trip, I asked him why he asked me to his house to celebrate his father's day. He replied by his mother told him to invite me de. Icicz.. Den he overslept and told me to come at 5 plus when he had woke up..Dots.. he told me that the break up thingy was a hoax. He wanted me to know that I am in the wrong and wants me to feel remorse and guilty.
In the bus trip he was so sweet to me. I can truly feel that. Later when his parents were back he cut the cake and we shared it. It was nice. We watched telly and I left his house around 10..kekez..I took cab home den reached home around 10 plus. So tired.
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