Thursday, June 29, 2006
How's I wish that me and deardear will be very sweet to each other like on our anniversary. But don noe y it seem like we would quarrel every now and then. haiz..
11:02 am
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Yesterday is my 1st year anniversary wus deardear. He brought me to mount faber to have sky dining. We sat on the cable car wus the table inside the cable car. But when the cable car moved out of the station, the cable car was shaking quite badly, for a moment I thought the water from the table would spilled. hahaz..The soup was not bad, but the chicken was still not up to my expectation. The desert was egg pudding wus strawberry. I was so happy then can be wus deardear to savour precious moments together.
9:24 am
Monday, June 26, 2006
My life is in such a mess.. I am totally lost..
10:38 am
Friday, June 23, 2006
Finally today is the end of the week liao. I have been waiting for hush puppies to call me but so far they have not. I had went for hush puppies interview on last saturday and I was so sure that I will be selected. But it going to be a week le. I called up my friend to ask beacuse her friend was the one who intro me to it. My friend said that her friend said by the end of this week, she should have called. If not I could ask her again. Cause they are shortage of manpower and I had worked in hush puppies before tis give me a better standing. I get along quite well with the interviewer,I really had no idea whatsoever. But right now I am damn hungry le. Ate sandwiches and 2 mouthful of soya bean milk den still so hungry. I realised that since I been taking on the medicine given by my doctor I got alot of side effects. But this side effects makes me so hungry always.. I keep got the cravings to eat...I becoming fater e worz... T.T....I still had to endure for at least 1 1/2 hours before I can go eat. going siao siao liao...HUNGRY!!!!
10:12 am
Yesterday I quarrel wus my parents. I think they are quite unreasonable. My parents wants deardear to stay for dinner, but he had to go back home to do quiz, evaluation and rj, and the next day he got ut had to study for it, and the best thing is my mum still have not finished cooking. She only stated to cook and it is around 7 plus close to 8 le. Going back to his home from mine takes more than 1 hours plus. I think he reach home close to 10pm. But my parents dont understand it and forced him to stay. In the end i quarrel wus my mum over it. My dad was even worst. He said that my mum off day the day before why din he comes so that she got time to cook early. I refuted him by he comes to accompany me not wanting to stay for dinner. It is not asif his house dont have food. Diao... Sianz..
10:05 am
Monday, June 19, 2006
Wheez, my hoiday ends liao worz! Cannot slack liao. Cant really get used to waking up so early in the morning after 2 weeks of waking up late. Well...2 days ago, me and deardear was talking about hot cakes thingy. He said he wanted to order mac breakfast--hot cakes. I forbids him to do so as I think is not worth it lo. Den he said he wanted to make pan cakes himself in my house. Den from the time we started about taking about the pan cakes... that's where the troubles started brewing. Our opinions and views on the pan cakes get different, He said that pan cakes can be made on the traditional house stir frying wok. The very big wok type which mama used for stir-frying vegetables de. I said that using the wok the pan cakes woud came out to be disasterous de. He said wont de larhz. Den we debated on this issue very long, and we shifted from the wok to the oil part. I said using the wok the batter would stick to the wok de. He said by adding oil to to it den it wont stick to the wok le. Den I said den the pan cakes would be very oily de. He said use a tissue or oil wiper toilet to wipe away the oil on the wok can le, let the wok surfsce got an oily surface can le.
Den our arguement started. From the pan cakes thingy we kept quarrelling. den deardear said that our "yi jian bu he", I am not willing to admit I am in the wrong, and I am always wanting to win, My "hao sheng xin" very strong he cant take it. I refuted him by why from this small matter can be blown up to such a huge matter, He said the matter does not just about the pan cakes thingy le. Is the way how I handle matter. The ting thing that I don think important or small thing to him matters alot.
Den he said using an analogy we are both in a train that is nearing its destination--break out. There is a key along the track which can open the lock of a spilt track to our future. But the chances are very slim. Den he said he wanted to break up with him. He was so adamant in it. I had no choice but to agreed to it. Though it hurts so painfully. I cried alot till my pillow is so wet. Den we talk till 6 plus in the morning, more than 6 hours of conversation. Though there are hang ups of calls in between. During the last part of the talk I could felt that deardear had soften his approached but he still dont want to "patch up" with me.
Later in the afternoon which is yesterday--father's day. He called me around 5 plus to talk. I was so surprised that he called me. Normally I am the ones to give in and call him 1st de. Den we talked awhile den asked him whether do I wanted to change for the good. I said I know where I gone wrong and I had already changed to be more smarter to handle thing le and so on blah blah..Den I asked him is he willing to forgive me and "patch up". He said No. I am so devastated. I lost all hopes. I said to him I wanted to use the tarot to foretell and ask for advices. The tarot cards showed the follwing 5 cards. "inverted temperance, inverted the hermit, the hang man, the world and the devil" It was quite a bad cards except the world. I interpreted for deardear later when he called me for the interpretations. One of the cards--the hang man said after sadness there is a glimsp of hope. He told me am I willing to go his house right now. As I had woke up not long ago and sianz that I had to travelled all the way to boon lay when I live in toa payoh. The bus journey took more than 1 hours there. I was abit unwilling. Den he told me to come down to his house nw to celebrate father's day for his father and asked me to buy a cake. He told me to make it fast as his family was going out for dinner at 6.30pm. Den is already 5 plus le it was in such a hurry. I hurry changing my clothes and all sorts den i went to the cake shop which it durian mousse cake is nice. I bought it and waited quite long for cab and time is pressing. I reached his house around 6.20pm.
When I reached his house I saw his mother at the doorsteps talking to neighbour. wahahaz.. Den i murmured some thing den went inside his house. Den deardear is in his bedroom. He told me to placed the cake in the fridge. Den he said that the book that I had given to him when is was my 1st month anniversary gift to him was in the 1st drawer. I been searching for this book for some times den he told me that it meant to be a supprised on our 1 year anniversary that the book surfaced. He was still quite cold towards me den he told me to said sorry. I apologised.
Den later me and his family went out for dinner at taman jurong there. By then he was okay to me le. Den quite sweet to me. We had sambal kangkong, cereal prawn, pipa chicken, sweet sour fish and egg toufu with black pepper chicken in the centre. The serving portions were so small worz.. But it was quite delicious. Later his parents went to sheng siong supermart to shop, his brother went to buy thing. We went back to his house 1st. During the bus trip, I asked him why he asked me to his house to celebrate his father's day. He replied by his mother told him to invite me de. Icicz.. Den he overslept and told me to come at 5 plus when he had woke up..Dots.. he told me that the break up thingy was a hoax. He wanted me to know that I am in the wrong and wants me to feel remorse and guilty.
In the bus trip he was so sweet to me. I can truly feel that. Later when his parents were back he cut the cake and we shared it. It was nice. We watched telly and I left his house around 10..kekez..I took cab home den reached home around 10 plus. So tired.
Den our arguement started. From the pan cakes thingy we kept quarrelling. den deardear said that our "yi jian bu he", I am not willing to admit I am in the wrong, and I am always wanting to win, My "hao sheng xin" very strong he cant take it. I refuted him by why from this small matter can be blown up to such a huge matter, He said the matter does not just about the pan cakes thingy le. Is the way how I handle matter. The ting thing that I don think important or small thing to him matters alot.
Den he said using an analogy we are both in a train that is nearing its destination--break out. There is a key along the track which can open the lock of a spilt track to our future. But the chances are very slim. Den he said he wanted to break up with him. He was so adamant in it. I had no choice but to agreed to it. Though it hurts so painfully. I cried alot till my pillow is so wet. Den we talk till 6 plus in the morning, more than 6 hours of conversation. Though there are hang ups of calls in between. During the last part of the talk I could felt that deardear had soften his approached but he still dont want to "patch up" with me.
Later in the afternoon which is yesterday--father's day. He called me around 5 plus to talk. I was so surprised that he called me. Normally I am the ones to give in and call him 1st de. Den we talked awhile den asked him whether do I wanted to change for the good. I said I know where I gone wrong and I had already changed to be more smarter to handle thing le and so on blah blah..Den I asked him is he willing to forgive me and "patch up". He said No. I am so devastated. I lost all hopes. I said to him I wanted to use the tarot to foretell and ask for advices. The tarot cards showed the follwing 5 cards. "inverted temperance, inverted the hermit, the hang man, the world and the devil" It was quite a bad cards except the world. I interpreted for deardear later when he called me for the interpretations. One of the cards--the hang man said after sadness there is a glimsp of hope. He told me am I willing to go his house right now. As I had woke up not long ago and sianz that I had to travelled all the way to boon lay when I live in toa payoh. The bus journey took more than 1 hours there. I was abit unwilling. Den he told me to come down to his house nw to celebrate father's day for his father and asked me to buy a cake. He told me to make it fast as his family was going out for dinner at 6.30pm. Den is already 5 plus le it was in such a hurry. I hurry changing my clothes and all sorts den i went to the cake shop which it durian mousse cake is nice. I bought it and waited quite long for cab and time is pressing. I reached his house around 6.20pm.
When I reached his house I saw his mother at the doorsteps talking to neighbour. wahahaz.. Den i murmured some thing den went inside his house. Den deardear is in his bedroom. He told me to placed the cake in the fridge. Den he said that the book that I had given to him when is was my 1st month anniversary gift to him was in the 1st drawer. I been searching for this book for some times den he told me that it meant to be a supprised on our 1 year anniversary that the book surfaced. He was still quite cold towards me den he told me to said sorry. I apologised.
Den later me and his family went out for dinner at taman jurong there. By then he was okay to me le. Den quite sweet to me. We had sambal kangkong, cereal prawn, pipa chicken, sweet sour fish and egg toufu with black pepper chicken in the centre. The serving portions were so small worz.. But it was quite delicious. Later his parents went to sheng siong supermart to shop, his brother went to buy thing. We went back to his house 1st. During the bus trip, I asked him why he asked me to his house to celebrate his father's day. He replied by his mother told him to invite me de. Icicz.. Den he overslept and told me to come at 5 plus when he had woke up..Dots.. he told me that the break up thingy was a hoax. He wanted me to know that I am in the wrong and wants me to feel remorse and guilty.
In the bus trip he was so sweet to me. I can truly feel that. Later when his parents were back he cut the cake and we shared it. It was nice. We watched telly and I left his house around 10..kekez..I took cab home den reached home around 10 plus. So tired.
10:21 pm
Thursday, June 15, 2006
aiyayah, I quarrel again wus my dear le. We can really debate alot whether going out or not den ends up quarrelling thus me staying at home. Holiday is quite a scary thing for me nw. During school term, how I wish it will be holiday soon. But when holiday came, and it goes by, I begin to hate it. Probably because I slack too much le den begin to feel so uncomfortable and bored. Feel sick too and maybe because of the side effect of the medicine I am taking that making me feel so sick.
11:14 pm
Sunday, June 11, 2006
I need to go see doctor again tomorrow.. arghz...broke le. Now see doctor so ex de. Have to wake up early tomorrow, cannot sleep till very late le. then I need to pass thing to my buddy but I had to rush here and there pengz liao... Have to slowly find my way to ocean building le. Got pass by there before but now really need to go there really must recap my memories how to go there. diao.. tomorrow hope dont have to walk alot of yuan wang lu. I go and chat wus my deardear liao..
10:05 pm
I so super duper sianz... I been wanting to find a job but y....... All the pay so pathetic low de. Almost all 5 bucks only sianz...I been waiting for a reply from 1 of my frenz but to no avail. It's so hard to contact her worz.. sob.. school holiday ending soon in a week time to be exact.. wondering whether it's a gd thing or not. Hope my cognitive team will be changed, as for the rest should be quite fine. I got my communication UT result le...I got C+...sianz... but at least pass lohz..I really dont dare to see my maths UT result worz.. I am a super maths idiot de. haiz.. Y am I so poor in maths.. when my vacation ends, then got 2 UT in a week worz. So xiong... I scared scared.... surely die de...haiz... got to go now very late le..
1:29 am
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Now it way past midnight, wus everyone asleep and here I am blogging. I am having my 2 weeks holiday and I am feeling damn bored le... I stay at home rot the whole day... Don feel like going out or how should I said is no money to go out....wahahaz.... I so pitiful no one wanna yang wo sad....;p My deardear finally forgive me le. I really wrote a 5000 words journal for him. In the journal got alot of the time we spend together. The memories that we had shared... The sadness, happiness, tears, laughters... We had sacrifices so much for each other. Or should I said my deardear sacrifice alot for me heh... He sacrifices his chance to go overseas to study and dtay at rp and i sacrifice the chance to study in other poly to be wus him in rp. Hope after his ns, we can go to Australia to pursue our dreamz...I am keeping my fingers crossed..... Hope nothing go awry....
1:10 am
Friday, June 02, 2006
2 days ago I quarrel wus deardear. He ask me to do things den I dont want to. he scolded me den in return I shouted at him and showed him black face in front of his friends. He got really angry wus me. While going back home from school he dont want to send me home as he promised to send me home a few days ago and expected me to send him home. As he hurt my hand and dint wait for me at control station and showed me his attitude face, I got so flared up and walked towards to my train platform. I wished he would run after me but he dint. I was so crushed. I ignored him for the whole day and he dont bothered even to call me, and he hung up on the numberous call dat I called him the yesterday. He think I am in the wrong, yeah maybe he's right! diao.... Today we break up during our lunch time. Den later back to class he msn me to meet him after school he wanted to pass me our rings. Our rings tthat we had taken down when we break he want me to take it if not he will throw it away. I went to meet him and I cling onto not letting him go. Finally after some time he decided to forgive me if i do a 5000 words journal. Haiz..... 5000 words omg!12:00 am
